The story of Jolene
“Happiness can found in the darkest times if one only remembers to turn on the light” so Dumbledore says.
When I got diagnosed with rare pelvic pain conditions, 3 years ago, I didn’t feel that way. “Sparkle Jojo” as the people called me, was gone. I was lost in my emotions of grief, depression, shame and frustration for a long time, over a year. I was uncertain how I would live, much less be the person I and others wanted. In a world that doesn’t recognize the reality chronic pelvic conditions can make it nearly impossible to sit, which means work, travel, driving, life, felt impossible along with daily tears or hopelessness. Today, I manage as best as I can, standing at work, using a pelvic cushion, engaging in tons of inner work. Although it isn’t the life I would have chosen for myself or anyone, I think we can choose how to be in it. I think that’s what Dumbledore was trying to convey.
I’m still learning, but I choose gratitude, self love, connection and seeing it as an opportunity live in the upmost spectrum of human existence from suffering and the art of survival to finding my most compassionate, adaptable and resilient self. And helping others do the same. And that’s a beautiful thing. That’s purpose, where it meets happiness, in the dark. You can find the light too friend. 💖💙💚
Alone we are isolated, but together are are strong. I see and hear you.