The story of Deya

A few years ago, I was put on Venlafaxine + Clomipramine. I started having symptoms like numbness and loss of libido. When I quit the drugs, these symptoms never went away, and on top of that, I got more symptoms like immense anhedonia, depression, and inability to feel emotions (blunted affect). These symptoms made me have suicidal thoughts. I was living-dead, an empty shell.